And this is me today (1)

It has been a frustrating day. I really want to continue to make a difference in my work but find myself continually frustrated by appointments, transport breakdowns and problems, other staffs lack of understanding etc etc. But I should be more patient, I am sure it will continue to improve and that I will be able to help organise my work, and hence improve the SU daily life accordingly. I guess it is just my impatience with others that frustrates me the most.

I have loved writing this blog - I know that it appears nobody has read it yet but me and that nobody has made a comment but somehow that doesn't matter. I can write a little everyday and more importantly I managed to start and finish a short story - however simple it was. Around 2000 words created in one sitting at at my computer.

I am really tired tonight and also very cold. It has appeared a nice sunny day for April but in reality the cold was biting. I have just moved from a comfy position in front of the fire to a much cooler study to write this. I feel the cold.

Nothing very exciting has happened to me today as nothing really exciting happens to me most days. But hey, that is my life and most of the time it is ok. I went shopping in Tesco for just a few bits and ended up still spending nearly £40 and can't quite understand how it was so much, how it was too much again.

I did notice that the local church was having its roof mended. There was a fairly big hole in the roof from the recent bad winds and storms. It was round, where the tiles had slipped and looked almost like a hurricane had hit. The vicar said it was going to cost loads to get fixed but they must have only been up there one day and it looked good as new. I was surprised to see that the roofers were just using a ladder and no scaffolding but hey, perhaps God was their Health and Safety officer!! I notice, as did my colleague, that the church had a kinda of walkway (there is probably a better word but can't think of it) all the way around the roof and the men were walking on it. I thought how great it would be to get up there and see the view or even better get to the top of the tower and look over the village and beyond. Maybe I could even see my house from there.

The vicar is very nice, much more like the kinda of vicar I was used to as a child. Yet again I find myself thinking about faith and God but something seems to hold me back. This continual battle between what is right and good and what the church seems to represent and present to the world. I find this whole issue of sinners etc really hard to take because I believe that people are basically good and just do bad things and make mistakes. I believe that given the chance we could all care about and maybe even love each other. Maybe this is why I am so quickly disappointed with people, with life in general. This hippy attitude probably doesn't help me cope with life.

Anyway enough of the hippy claptrap. Time to go and sort out some email etc.

Will write again soon - possible.